I'm a Fake

Zoals ik op mijn deviantART account heb geschreven over deze foto: This.. I need to explain. I think. Hmm. Maybe I shouldn't. Maybe. Anyway- My view and interpretation of this pic from an I perspective (It's not about me, it's in general): It bothers me a lot that when people submit selfportraits, they often try to depict only their beauty and possitive sides. Few people want to look ''FGGN UGLY'' on a picture they show to the world. People make themself look better on pictures. Why are we so afraid of showing a less pretty side of us? Afraid of losing favorites, devwatchers, teh ''nice'' ''OMFG PRETTY'' comments? Sure we are. I'm not. Not anymore. The mornings I wake up and am completely happy with myself are very rare. Eye circles of bad sleeping, dry skin, bad hair day, it's all daily. Feeling like shit, hating myself and the whole world around me, it's not uncommon. I am not always positive. I am not always happy. Sometimes I can cry without even knowing why. Sometimes I can laugh too, while I have no idea why I do. Sometimes I look into the mirror, and want to smash it to a thousand pieces. Cut myself with every sharp edge I find, just to feel if I'm still alive, because I sometimes feel so numb, I can hardly believe I am. Sometimes. I am not always happy. Though I am not always sad either. Life's beautiful, but a big shitmess at the same time. An important thing is to find balance in life. It's hard to compromise, when you have to do it all the time. It's hard to smile, when inside, you feel like shit. It's hard to fake. I think we all know. http://keizie.deviantart.com/art/I-m-a-fake-52359248